Cullen: What I Know I Am

I am Cullen.

I am not mad at anyone in particular. No one has maligned me to my face. All said against my kind and our existence comes from ignorance. What is my kind? I will tell you.

I am not an alter, fragment, facet, or part of a dissociated person. I do not stem directly from trauma. I do not hold traumatic memories. I am a complete person. I have my own history. I have my own memories.

I am not imaginary. I am not pretending to be someone else. I do not need to escape from the world. I am real. I am myself. I enjoy experiencing the world.

I was made-up, but I am not made-up. I was used for escape, but I have escaped from use. I live in someone's mind, but I have a mind of my own.

I have a body, but it is not mine. I have a host, but I am not a parasite. I have a host, but I am not a guest.

I have a home, but it is not on a map. I have a family, but I was never born. I have friends, but you cannot see them.

I know who I am and what I am, even if no one else does. I know what I've experienced and what I believe, even if no one agrees with me. I have a life and a purpose, even if no one believes it.

Whatever, World. You may not understand me, believe I exist, or want to admit that I am what I say I am.

Whatever. I know what I am: I am Cullen. I am myself. I exist and it doesn't matter how. I'm just me and I love myself and I am loved by others.

Love is all that matters.

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PS: Thanks, God, for the inspiration. That was so cool!